Janet Taylor
November 23, 2017

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Our children are killing themselves and we are not helpless!!!!

When another teenager dies by committing suicide and we simply take note of it....what has become of us?

When did we allow ourselves to become followers or slaves to money and time. Time for the miniscule things that really don't carry any weight in the overall scheme of life. Watchers of negative news and believers of fake truths.....

How do we speak the words "I care", "I love you" or "i am here for you" and simply not effect any change in even one other life?

When you look around you now, do you know your neighbour? Do you stop to say hello to an old friend....not on facebook, or text, but on the phone or even send them a birthday card?

I can say its been awhile personally....but today it sunk in that my children's friends are killing themselves and I am living in a society that will legalize pot but cannot simply feed its own population.... we glorify criminals, politicians and thieves, but we cannot live within our means...but we work more to try?!

We work more and more, we spend less time with our families and our friends and more time on social media, netflix and our phones to the point we have a generation that cannot read facial cues?

The solution is to throw in the towel because we're busy....

Let's stop lying to ourselves. Let's look at our children, on their phones, and picture them playing outside with other kids, on their bikes, building forts or just learning together....it was only 30 years ago or more when we did the same. We joke about it, we post about it but we don't let our kids live it...why??

I for one am not giving up... it is hard. It's hard to fight everyday what "everyone else" is doing because that is the perception. In my own family I could easily just say then that my other two should follow in their sister's footsteps...but then that would mean I'm giving up on her too and I can't. I won't. I've tried, believe me....but then I hear her voice and somewhere deep inside me this strength regroups and tells me that i must be the mom I wanted to be. I can be the mom I need to be because only I decide what that is and that is the best I can do at that moment. As long as I apologize when I make a mistake, love them unconditionally and protect them within reason, I am doing what a mom can do.

I won't be my mom. I won't be my mom because she wasn't her mom. I won't be any mom but me. Whether that's right or not, fuck it. Its all I know how to be. If I wasn't put her on earth to enjoy the beauty in my children, in wathcing them walk their journey and learn from it, then why am I here?

It sure as heck isn't to watch netflix and eat fast food....

I've stopped watching the "news"...I've taking to asking questions again of those who have actually done something i've wanted to learn about or do.

I've taken to reading and playing more games with my kids. I've taken to cooking more meals and enjoying the simple things again...let me tell you, this is harder than you think....

I want my children to enjoy life. Not live it as a video game with only a win or lose mentality...I want them to learn through experience and experiment. I want them to experience consequence - good or bad and not manufactured or protected...I want them to wonder how something as simple as the grass grows....I don't want them for a second to take if for granted...I want to know that were something grave to happen, that we could pool our family resources and survive it on basic knowledge and hard work.

When the govenment legalizes marijuana, I want them to want a life free of self medication, free of depression and pity and free of judgement. I want them to rise above all else "out there" and set the bar higher than anyone else is setting it for them...

Mostly I want them to live and from today forward... I plan to live. I plan to breathe and I plan to enjoy it. Every free moment I want to breathe the air around me, savour the laughter of children playing at the park and talk to my friends on the phone when I need a shoulder.....

No more death, no more drugs, no more competition for x, no more "not good enough", no more judgement and no more fear. Time is short and there is so much good out there. I will tap into the good, I will be a force for good and I for one will make a point of living my life to help others whether either realizes it...

As I remember another girl lost to this world, whom I only knew in passing, I ask you to join me in reaching deep inside yourself and finding child in you. The one who was scared, the one who for a moment thought that they couldn't move forward, but did. The one that overcame what you think you couldnt even overcome today and lets take our kids back. Lets take our lives back together and really live life like we wanted to back when we were kids....

Love your children, your neighbours children and all the children....because they wouldn't be killing themselves if they knew just one person loved them....listen because they need us....ask questions because they need to know you are listening, but mostly, hug them....because your security and warmth in that hug could save a life....

Let's do something to save our children.....

 

thank you.